Mutation

When I no longer feel good being in the light
When I find myself waiting so eagerly till the dark
As I find more serenity more than day in the night
My mind flies back to the days it was a walk in the park

World is so unfair that I knew it very well
I don’t need someone to remind me of it everyday
I’m ready to take it as it is, heaven or hell
‘Cause at the moment nothing really matter to me anyway

When the world wanna crush you, choke you too much
You search for the ways to cope with that damn pain
When the world build walls around you, isolate you so much
Your life will be just like a bloody chamber of pain

I’d begin to ignore the world, not to care the things around me
I start to see no point of caring for those anymore
If the world delivers me bad no matter how good I’d be
I’m so damn sure that the world cannot be my paramour

When you start to like ashes instead of colours
When you want your heart to burn instead of beat
When you feel charcoal is softer than the petals of flowers
You know you’re beginning to sense different kinda heat

Your soul will slowly surrender to the elements of hate
As you feel that’s the ideal way to get through this shame
‘Cause you feel, for someone’s happiness you were just the bait
And you won’t be able to live having that in front of your name

I hate the light as much as I hate that way
the world treated me when I deserved my fair share
And I find peace in the darkness that I should say
About me, I know this word ain’t bloody care

When you find a smile is only a way of disguise
of all the dirty things they hide in their heads
When you come to think why should I always pay the price
You wanna see all those rascals in their deathbeds

You say ‘Oh it’s okay’ to many unfair things you face
Thinking one day you will be rewarded with something worthwhile
Yet you face is injustice, you’re in the losing place
When you understand what you waited for, is a lie

Well, I ain’t do good just to expect all good in return
In this shit world I can’t really expect that anyway
At least a little shield from bad luck when it’s my turn
If it’s not there where’s the price of being good that I pay?

You try your best to do all things to live by your code
But this world will do everything to crush you every time
As just another person you won’t stand a chance in that road
Unless you change you soon you’ll go down to your last dime

And I chose to change, give up all the sanity in me
I let go of the last hopes I had on the goods things I see
I’m gonna engrave my blood with the poison they’d leave
Oh world, I’m gonna be the beast you wanted me to be

Now I don’t care what is good or what’s happy in here
Imma think of me, only me, no other damn thing I cared
I used to be good but you tainted it with the poison here
So ‘old me’ is dead & I’m coming for you so better be prepared